FOREVER our IzzyJane

Happy new year!!!

2012-01-19T16:42:00.001-08:00

a new year.....

Celebrated with my best friends!

missing her

2012-01-18T20:30:00.000-08:00

I miss her.....

I really really really do.

everywhere i go i try to feel her, imagine her, here her name

I shake my head, trying to reason, trying to forget, trying to heal

but it remains

I MISS HER

BitterSweet

2012-01-10T15:24:00.000-08:00

Without bitter you could never taste the sweet. I read, say and think about this A LOT.
Life is hard. many people have a lot of bitter in their life and there will be more bitter to come :(
so how do we keep going?

You try to see, taste, and yearn for SWEET. one word Bittersweet.

We will all have times when the sweet taste so good we forget that its sweet
then...
We will all have times when the bitter comes and we yearn for the sweet.

Through it all we need to know that everything IS. It just IS! We can't change what will happen to us.

We just need to learn that the IS,
is hard, joyful,exciting,
scary, courageous,tempting,
faithdigging,
rescuing, loving,
hopeful and much much more.

My amazing friends have been trying to build there family of 3 into so much more. Jen and Josh Anderson are so strong, and have a beautiful son Mason who is 3. He will be the best brother one day. I know his siblings are waiting for him, and our heavenly father is telling them to hang on just a little bit longer until they can come into Jen and Josh's lives. They have started a blog to help there adoption process get seen, heard and to get to love this great family!

Please, if you know anyone who may have some bitter, there might be a chance that it'll bring the sweetest gift to the Anderson's home! A baby, a life, a gift from God!

Please take a look at their blog!

My amazing Friends the Anderson's.. visit here

my 6 Month thoughts

2012-01-01T17:06:00.000-08:00

Wow my baby girl would have been 6 months this month. weird....
I feel like a 6 month baby is a huge mile stone, they are usually on a schedule, they are starting to interact, smiling and making cute noises...I want all that... I am jealous of all those who have it. I'm jealous of the joy a baby brings to life. I am jealous of those that don't know this pain.

I absolutely hate the emptiness that I feel. I look at pictures of when i was pregnant,
and ask "WHO is that girl?" I look happy, innocent, full of life, and so excited for the life ahead.
Now when I see pictures of me I see so much pain in my eyes. Maybe thats why some people don't talk to me anymore, I look too sad... uhgh and i'm sorry for that.
I'm sorry that people have to be careful around me, I hate that too. My friends and cousins are having babies, i'm excited for them, i am hopeful that they will have a good outcome, and i am happy for them! I know they are sad for me and they are being careful around me. I hate that!

I want all to know that this is how I feel about pregnant women, delivery and babies.

I am happy for you!
I had a great pregnancy! I would love to talk about my experience, what made me nauseous, what I craved, how she moved, how I never went into labor ughhgh, and to ALWAYS know that we have a motherlys instinct!!
I had a great delivery, I love talking about it!
I gave birth to a beautiful girl.
I want to hold MY IzzyJane, so if I don't want to hold your baby, be understanding. Its hard to hold a baby when I can't touch, see, or even smell izzy! TOO much pain.
But I do want to see you and your baby! It's hard but thats the way it is. I know that!
I honestly don't like the sounds of a crying baby. It's a noise I never heard coming out of Izzy, and that is painfully excruciating.
I don't mind you complaining about the hard things that come to being a mom, cause lets be honest i'm sure its an adjustment. But just know i would die to have any hard thing that comes with a baby.
If you let me complain about my baby belly fat or even saggy boobs, i'll let you complain about it too. I think women's bodies should go back to normal after all the sacrifice we go through!

I am writing these things because I want people to know where i stand so your not awkward with me and you know that i am TRULY happy for you! If you can't handle my thought about this that's ok, i understand. I hope one day I will be able to have a "normal" experience where people will want to talk about my experience cause hopefully my next baby will be breathing, crying, and pooping! I will always compare IzzyJane to my other pregnancies. She is all of me just like your babies are all of you! She will always be in my thoughts, she is apart of my family. She has a nursery waiting for her other siblings to take over her bed, clothes, diapers, binkies, etc etc.

she is my first and I love every moment of who we were together, and now, who we are apart....

What it boils down too is that I HATE THIS and I'm trying to be "normal" but it's hard to navigate through this mess!

What I do love is that I have an angel who is helping me give back to others and I have more awearness of others.

IZ IS and that IS Love beauty and healing! Thanks IZzy for making me awaken to beauty!

getting easier YES getting harder YES

2011-11-29T09:33:00.001-08:00

its getting easier to live but its also getting harder.

easier in the fact that I'm getting used to the idea that my izzyjane is not here
easier that my body is no longer healing form giving birth
easier that i am alive and that I'm doing alot of things to live and love
easier that i am keeping her spirit alive
easier that i know she is proud of me

harder to know that she will always be gone
harder that my body isn't pregnant 5 months later! :(
harder that the holidays are coming. I have always been a scrooge when it comes to Christmas, Izzy was supposed to make it easier for me, and now its that much harder. I want Christmas to go away, i don't want to even see baby Jesus, or Marys belly. I have such a hard time seeing newborn, its like pepper spray is being sprayed in my eyes every time I have to see one. That's dramatic i know, but that's how it seems.
my eyes cry and cry and the sting in my heart doesn't leave.
Halloween was tough. I had planned alot of fun activities cause I love Halloween. Then I was all dressed up with my family to go trick er treating and the first house we went they serve hot fresh donuts and there was like 5 baby's in there cute little outfits. i broke down right then and there.

I seriously can't imagine how Christmas is going to be.
i am trying to make the best out of it though.

We did a festival of tree in honor of Izzy and other moms that have to go through this. it turned out beautiful!

We are going our first fundraiser this Friday at the J. Brooks Jewelery designer show. It should be amazing!
I am excited to see all the support that will be there! I hope I can feel IzzyJanes spirit close to me!

We are going away for a week to a beautiful sandy ocean! That will be amazing!

The RIDE

2011-11-06T20:33:00.000-08:00

The ride

its early, presipitation on the grass
all alone, body and mind have to work together
starting, you have to pedel slow or fast
enjoying being out again, its freeing
the hill, looks long, looks terrifying, even unattianable
turn around, i say. but what would that make me?
i've come this far, don't give up!
climbing the hill it hits me, Gears, go easy on yourself, change gears
there are many gears to help me reach the top.
they are like family/friends, each giving me more slack to pump up
it gets steaper, harder, I just might stop.
oh, I have one more gear to lessen the load and then
the moment i worked so hard for. the top!
The view, I can see it
ahhhh Its freeing. my lungs can breath in the air
looking out at the valley it looks so big, I am so small
who am I? strong, couragous, aware? hmm
no time to think now cause here comes the drop!
gears switching back to hard, because I have made it this far
I can stand up, feel the wind on my face
ride as if an angel were riding along with me
I can feel her. She wispers, "it a ride"
Smile, the ride has just begun!

Flutterby

2011-10-26T12:45:00.000-07:00

Im wearing mascara again!

I didn't think there would be a day, that I could go a whole day not smearing my mascara from my tears, but there has been some!

and i need to thank all of you who have left messages, who have delivered gifts, who have been courageous to talk to me and tell me that i'll make it through the nightmare!

I want to thank Whitney Hawkins and Meagan (from Las Vegas) who both have angels waiting in heaven and were angels on my blog. I don't know these girls personally but they reached out to me in my darkest moments, giving me some of the hope and light that they have gained through the loss of their babies! Some of the things you said helped me get through the hell that I lived in. Thank you form the bottom of my heart for giving me some hope! I have felt, seen and search for HOPE!

I want to thank my family and friends! I am so lucky to have many groups of friends who have turned into family. You have all been amazing!

I'm being 100% serious when i say I couldn't have done it without you!

some took me on trips.

some sat and cried with me

some made me get up and go to breakfast

some made me go to lunch and eat

some let me do their hair while i was sobbing to them(that was risky)

some dropped of presents

some sent cards

some just prayed for me

some just listened

some faced booked, blogged me

all of you

anything you did it helped me and continues to help me!!!!

I THANK YOU for FlutteringBY!

Thank you thank you!

Because of the hope love and support you gave me, it has made me stronger, it has made me more aware, it has made me want to give back. I am So excited about the foundation we are creating. I hope you all know that every ounce you gave to me in support I am giving back to others! I hope that i can flutterby and help families they way that you have helped me!

I love you all, even those who i don't know

I love my IzzyJane and what she has created, without her i wouldn't be the mom that i am today!

This is when IzzyJane spirit first entered my body! Love her and the light that she brought into me!

Continue to FlutterBy my IzzyJane

Flutter...By...IzzyJane

2011-10-08T19:55:00.000-07:00

I remember so clearly the moment i saw some light in my darkness. it was just a flicker.
Danny and I were driving in the car. He turned to me and said "I want to start a foundation in IzzyJanes name." I was in the middle of one of my many melt downs, and I stopped. "what?" I asked. "Ya! I want to help families that have to go through this. Many families have gone through it and unfortunately many will ahead of us."
That's when I saw hope.
I have never really needed as much HOPE in my life as I need and rely on it now. But I saw it. It was like it fluttered by. That afternoon we were sitting on my sister Jeni's back porch, our "happyplace" and once again I was in a middle of a breakdown, Danny turned to me and whispered "Do you see that? A big yellow butterfly has been flying around us all afternoon. I think its IzzyJane".
I stopped crying once again and smiled, a true smile.
From that moment on I knew that's what we needed to do. we needed something to help us start to heal. We needed to help as many families as we can, so that they too will see Hope in their future.

We came up with the name FlutterBy IzzyJane. I love it. It reminds me of that day when the butterfly was fluttering by us. It reminds me of how soft and precious our IzzyJane is. It makes my heart skip a beat for the pain that other Families are having to suffer, and then it skips one more beat for the hope that we can offer. We are going to make "Forever" bracelets for the moms and babies and donated them to the hospitals. When I think of what really meant the most to me while I had my brief moment with sweet IzzyJane, it was knowing that we wore matching bracelets forever. She is mine forever, she will be in my heart forever, I know she is with me forever. FOREVER. I touch, see, and feel my bracelet daily, never taking it off and like Izzy, this bracelet is apart of me forever. For all the moms that have suffered this pain you are all apart of me. For the moms that haven't yet gone through this and unfortunately it happens to 1 out of 160 pregnancies, I hope to give you some comfort. I hope to Flutterby and give you some ease with financial burial costs. With the money that we raise we are going to make these bracelets and also donate some money to help with the unexpected and brutal burial cost. We want to Flutterby like our IzzyJane did to us and to help others that are feeling this pain. Flutter...by...IzzyJane... please Flutterby

We are just getting started with a Facebook page, and we are working with an attorney to get things up and running! Visit us at FlutterBy IzzyJane.

Nightmare...DREAM

2011-10-05T11:03:00.000-07:00

My mind is on repeat, that repeat is a nightmare. There really is no other way to look at it

but

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along."

-Eleanor Roosevelt

I am living through this horror. It scares me. I hate it. and I can take the next thing that comes along!
I replay the nightmare of going to the hospital having the doctor say theres NO HEARTBEAT....
I replay the nightmare of calling my family....
I replay the nightmare of delivery....
I am a nightmare, I have no baby inside me, or a baby that i am taking care of.

BUT then

I saw her, my baby
Love at first sight. she is so BEAUTIFUL
9 months of wondering who she would look like
what traits she would have from Danny or me.
9 months! and then i saw her, my baby
love at first sight. she was so beautiful
graceful, elegant, precious

I will never forget that moment
it took my breath away

I wish she could have seen me, the one who took care of her for 9 months.
the one who loved her, feed her, excerised with her, danced and sang with her.
If only our eyes could have meet just for an instance.

i am trying to delete my nightmare and make it a DREAM
a dream where you can't remeber the bad parts
and when you wake up you remember the good parts.

~~I had a baby~~
I have an ANGEL

~~I am not a mother~~
I am a WIFE

~~I have a nightmare~~
I have a DREAM

bricks

2011-09-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

before my eyes even open it hits me like a ton of bricks,

those bricks are on my chest and i cant get them off

the emptiness of my stomach, the crib, my heart

one by one I try to take them off. sometimes it feels good

and some bricks are really stuck.

the people around me try to take those bricks off, i really appreciate it!

but what holds bricks to the building? bond?

and unfortunately IzzyJane and I have a special bond, a special kind of glue that can't wash off, she will always be apart off me. I hope one day it just doesn't hurt as much. I hope that her bricks will become the butterflies that i wish her to be!

uplifting

2011-09-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

I am constantly trying to find ways to be uplifted and i love this ladies blog! She is a baby lost mother and has come a far way in light and love!

http://www.sharonmckeeman.com/blog/we-the-grateful/

Ranting

2011-09-20T11:13:00.000-07:00

My brain worries, has fear, doubt , disbelief
My heart is shattered, therefore cant reason with my brain!

I want to reason with both!

Brain, don't worry, have no fear, have no doubt!
Heart, you can heal, you can still love!

Being open to what has to come next....Get pregnant, get nauseous, "plan for the future"?!?!?!

which by the way, why do we "PLAN". I swear that's what kills me the most!!!! I had every thing planned. I had a swimsuit, a snowsuit (yea a cute Burberry one), every outfit washed and folded in her drawers, bows for every outfit, shoes, baby blessing dress. Sunscreen, baby wash, butt paste, bikinis, bottles, nipple protections, nursing bra, rocking chair, crib, picture frames hung waiting for her pictures to go in them, oh yea her first photo shoot was scheduled. Sparkling Clean house, organized closets, drawers, carpets cleaned, diaper bag ready, Car seat in the car ready with a toy hanging down. EVERYTHING YOU CAN THINK OF I PLANNED FOR HER! she should be here.....................................................................................................................................................
flat line, just like her heart and mine

anyways what comes next? don't plan for the future, take one day at a time, work on my foundation, give to others, enjoys time with Danny, go on trips with friends and family.

2011-09-16T10:15:00.000-07:00

I love this picture. it speaks to me.
once there was light in my soul and now i am dark.
dark in the inside, but hope on the outside
hoping that angels are circling around me
making it so i can see.
see all the beauty in only having IzzyJane for a brief moment
i love the light coming down onto this dark woman
her hand reaching up as if she were speaking for me
"IzzyJane, bring me light, encircle me with your love"
yet theres still dark.
dark in the unknown, the waiting
death has stolen my innocence, but it won't still my substance.
I will fight for another soul to come into my body and into the world
I will reach up to the heavens and ask for help
surrender to what is.
because there is light and that light is beautiful
rays beaming down on her making her glow
I like to think those rays are from our angels giving light to us.
the sun is so vibrant yet when it goes down its dark.
sunrise sunset
i guess right now it is my night
dark. cold.
a glipmse of light from the moon guiding me until i sunrise
Hoping and waiting for that sunrise to happen.

New York New York

2011-09-09T23:11:00.000-07:00

What better way to forget all of our grief and party in New York City

but the "reality really was straight ahead" as we boarded the plane to come home :(

but for 5 days we laughed, smiled, and ate like crazy!

I truly look happy here and well Gina, she looks happy to have me visiting!

Danny and I had a blast with Gina!

We rode our bikes all around New York

we rode over the Brooklyn bridge and then waiting in line for an hour to eat 3 large Pizza's! It was worth every minute and every calories!!!

OH and we SHOPPED.....ALOT :)

We saw "How to succeeded in business" with Daniel Radcliffe (harry potter) He did so good! and then we got to go back stage and meet him!!!!! No jk we just meet a dancer and then saw Daniel walk out of the studio, but we were close to him! :)

Gina's Flat! It was awesome! She was so great and let us sleep in her bed while she zonked out on her couch! We are so lucky that she took time off work and let us come out to start our "new normal"

we actually laughed alot! It felt good to have some fun and explore a new city with an awesome tour guide!

Yes we're dorks!

Dear New York

your amazing

I want to move to you

You kept my heart happy

I loved shopping

i loved eating, things actually tasted good!!

You are so busy and not alot of babies or prego women(what a relief)

Dear Gina

Your amazing

I want to move in with you

You kept my heart happy

I loved shopping with you

I loved eating with you

your not prego hahahaha

You kept "Larry from creeping in" hahaha

I'm so proud of you

Your a beautiful women who i admire!

Thank you for making danny and I laugh!

Love you

Dear Danny and Izzy

I love you both more than I can put into words!

2 months

2011-08-30T14:54:00.000-07:00

Soooo sad that I don't get to celebrate HER milestones :(

SO instead i will have to celebrate MY milestones

I can work out again

I can smile and jam to music

I can laugh with family and friends

I'm going on a trip to NYC

I can wear my jeans

I can touch my toes

I put one foot infront of another

I'm just really trying to be positive....Its hard!!!!

Dear IzzyJane

I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, BE NEAR TO US!

Your beautiful face brings a smile to my face!

Music is lifting my soul

2011-08-29T19:05:00.000-07:00

Music is the one way i feel alittle better, here are some of my favorites...

Do you have any songs that you love? Please share if you do!
These are some of the songs that I find uplifting!!!!

Sara Evans- a little bit stronger & Life without losing

JJ Heller- Save me

Sia- Breathe me

Mumford and Sons- timshel

Andy Grammer- keep your head up
Tessa Barton- Walk with me

HOPE

2011-08-29T10:09:00.000-07:00

We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up, or Fight Like Hell! Lance Armstrong

And let me tell you i am fighting like hell to get through this!

Hope is like the sun, which, as we journey toward it, casts the shadow of our burden behind us.

Samuely Smiles

2011-08-26T20:10:00.000-07:00

Bravery Is...

{for a bereaved mom} I stole this from another broken heart mom, and added to it.

... getting out of bed every morning without crying
did this today...

... putting on mascara {not the waterproof kind either} and embracing the day
didn't even attempt

... checking facebook even though she's sure to find pictures of infants, uterus', and random updates about how happy {or even worse, unhappy} their friends/acquaintances are in pregnancy

did this today...

... going to baby showers and congratulating friends on their new babies

missed out on my cousins baby shower

... checking the mail despite the heavy amounts of baby paraphernalia

yep

... checking email with the likelihood of developmental update ones where "your baby" is at this point in their ~~life~~.

... going to Target and walking past the baby aisles

... looking in the mirror to see that "mom body" she longed for but now loathes as a reminder of what she is missing

yep

... watching television and seeing the tunnel vision of babies everywhere you look

... going to church and praising God in the greatest storm of your life

... going to church and seeing new babies/families/moms

did this last sunday...

... going to Costco on the weekend. Is it me, or is every single family and child in that place on Sat./Sun.?

did this today also

... becoming pregnant again with all the anxiety that comes with subsequent pregnancies after a loss

... walking into the OB/GYN and not hyperventilating upon seeing all the pregnant women and infants

did that one today...

...standing up to those ~~jerks~~ people who attempt to "console" you by offering reasons why your baby had to die. Medical or not, they aren't ever helpful.

... laughing, smiling, and seeing the beautiful sunshine that is new every morning despite our struggles and sadness
yep tried to do this today

... explaining to a stranger that your child has passed and for once not making the effort to console them

did this one today...

...having your milk come and not having a baby to release the pressure/pain

done with this...thankgoodness!

...having a room ready for your baby and having to pack it up or leave up cause its to painful

her room is still up and cute as ever

{these obviously aren't all true of me... but I find these acts to be courageous}

Tug a WAR

2011-08-23T19:43:00.000-07:00

The best way i can explain my thoughts is like a game of TUG A WAR

I hate my life-------------I have an amazing life
9 months is a long time----------------I have alot of 9 months left
I want to work---------------I dont want to work
I want to be invisible-------------I really do like people talking to me
Don't talk to me-----------Please talk to me
I don't want to talk about it-------------How do you not talk about it
I want to get pregnant asap------------I'm fearful of getting pregnant
I am happy for other preganat women-------------I am so jealous of pregnant women
I love reading "the dead baby blogs"-------------I hate reading them, It breaks my heart
My heart is broken-------------I still have a beating heart
I don't want to do life without IzzyJane------------My life is without IzzyJane
I can't wait for Izzy to send down her siblings--------------Yep I can't wait!!!!!!

SO now what?

I guess i should go talk to a therapist------------She can't bring Izzy back. BUT Hopefully she can help my heart, brain, and fear

Please Please Please still talk to me, I hate that I am that "girl" that when I see you, you think
"oh my gosh here she is...dundundun....what do I say????"

Heres what you say

I am sooo sorry
Your daughter is beautiful
I wish i was a magician and could change this outcome
It just sucks
Lifes not fair

and trust me, by not saying anything is worse, you can't say anything wrong!

I am healing second by second, yep I still cry every second
I do feel the strength of others
I appreciate all the cards, letters, and calls
I wish I could send out thank you cards to all who has touched my heart

Even though my heart is broken, I have an even bigger heart.

I love my IzzyJane! I miss my IzzyJane!

I love her

2011-08-15T14:30:00.000-07:00

I LOVE HER

I love her dark hair

I love her button nose

I love her daddy's chin

I love her smell

I love her ruby red lips

I love her spirit

I love her hands

I JUST LOVE HER SO MUCH

Now i lay me down to sleep came to the hospital and took these beautiful pictures of IzzyJane.

(visit here to see how amazing this organization is http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/home/)

I want

2011-08-14T15:43:00.000-07:00

I want to breath normal again
I want my smile back
I want to take away this pain from not only me but from danny and family
I want to get pregnant again
I want a dog
I want to run away
I want my IzzyJane
I want to be happy again
I want my heart heal
I want to know that I'm going to make it through this
I want to be a mother

One month has gone...

2011-07-30T09:49:00.000-07:00

look how gorgeous you are

now i will always wonder what you look like in the months, and years to follow

but you are perfectly beautiful!

We miss you!

My IzzyJane and our story

2011-07-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

My Sweet baby girl IzzyJane

You came into this world "sleeping"

You were born with a silent heart, while mine is trying to keep beating.

You and I were a team for 41 weeks, and it came to end way to soon.

We went in to the doctors thinking we would get to take you home with us, that was until we found out that your heart was no longer beating.

We will always wonder why it turned out this way, because I know you miss me as much as I miss you! We might toss and turn, trying to figure it out why an umbilical cord can create a life, and then take it away, but I do know that there are no answers cause you are perfectly beautiful. Your spirit gave me purpose in life and I was so scared to have you come out of me and not have your spirit there. Your Dad was our savior, our strength, without him I don't know if i could have done it. I will always wonder why they didn't induce me at 40 weeks when we were still together.

When they did induce me I was in labor for 7 hours, our whole family was there trying to make me laugh, yet we were all breaking. Aunt Katie got inspired and bought us matching "Forever" bracelets. I wear mine everyday, as do you, You will forever be mine and I yours!

Then it came time to deliver you, I was crying knowing that you already been delivered into the hands of God. I had dreamt about this moment every night and now it was so real yet so far gone to know that I wouldn't hear your cries made my cries louder.

I some how got power and strength and was able to push you into the world. Words cannot even describe what a miracle giving birth is, it only took 30 minutes and then you were all mine to hold, to smell, and to see. I know you were with us in spirit, but oh IzzyJane, I wished a miracle could have brought you back to me!

Your body was so warm, your body was perfect, your face was absolutely gorgeous, your hands and feet were so precious!

I watched dad weigh you, and I was shocked that you weighed only 6lb 6oz because you looked so full and plump, yet you were so long and skinny. I guess you get both from me, a little plump but long!

The nurses were amazing, and set up a photographer to come and take pictures of our family.

It was a spiritual moment, knowing we are a family yet your spirit is with our heavenly father.

We then had our family come in to greet you, the love that we all have for you is indescribable. We all took turns examining you, all is awe that you were created inside of me and so perfect.

You are truly a gift from God.

We got to have you all night, and the next day. we couldn't sleep, yearning for these moments that we weren't going to take home with us.

I cuddled you, held your hand, feeling how sweet your spirit is and holding on to every scent!

Dad took pictures of you all night, holding you on his chest, weeping.

We even cut some of your long brown hair!

The next day we didn't wake up from this nightmare, and the hours were slipping by so fast, I couldn't bare to leave you. How could a mother and father leave their child? It was unbearable, even though we know you were with us.

We dressed you, swaddled you, and handed you to the nurse, and walked away empty. Ohhh how I dreamt of this all being different and the only hope I have is that I can do it all again. I now go through the days without you, yearning for you. I visit your resting place daily (as your cousin London calls it, Izzy's Palace) and I feel you close, but it will never be the same without you!

You are my Joy, you are my light.

I will always feel a longing to hold you, hear you, see you, but I do know you are holding me, listening to me and watching over me. When I smile, I can see your smile, when I cry I know you are catching my tears, and when I talk to you I know you are listening. You will forever be mine!

I love you more than words can express.

Love your momma

Pregnant with IzzyJane

2011-06-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

IzzyJane

2011-05-15T14:18:00.000-07:00

Had my first baby shower with my Girl friends! They are so sweet to me and did so much!

This is my belly when she stretches out. Its the craziest thing to watch, it gets soooo tight and then she pops out on the right side! haha It makes me laugh!

Here i am 33 weeks along!

We are really excited to have this angel come into our lives!

FaMiLy

2011-03-03T12:17:00.000-08:00

Beautiful california!

Andrew loves the beach! He decided he was tired and laid in the sand, It didn't bother him one bit!

DISNEYLAND

Paxton and London had never been to disneyland and to William its like his playground! We loved space mountain, indiana jones, and all you can eat chicken and ribs while they sang oldie songs, like Grandmas feather bed!

Baby Izzy loved all the rides too!

hahahahaha danny is getting electrocuted!!!

William passed out while we were at dinner! Long week with the cousins!

And least but not least....

We are having a...

2011-01-18T19:25:00.000-08:00

We can't wait to meet her June 30th!!

MeRrY ChRiStMaS

2011-01-04T19:02:00.000-08:00

Winder Dairy Scones are the best wish Daddy Dennis was with us!

Best Cousins

We could not wait to give Paxton his gift, We got Deron Williams to sign a jersey for Paxton!

Hope you all had a merry christmas!

HALLOWEEN

2010-11-22T19:36:00.000-08:00

Lady GAGA and Eminem

The GAGA'S

Super woman and Hermione Granger

Football boy and Cheerleader!

Happy Halloween!

Pumpkin Party

2010-11-22T19:32:00.000-08:00

Yummy Chex mix

Smile Sloan

We love carving pumpkins

Summers over but the memories are always with me!

2010-10-04T15:10:00.000-07:00

My best friend sense elementary school Sammy and her mom lisa getting ready for the wedding.

I got to help with the wedding by doing all their hair!

I had such a good time with all of them, they really make me laugh!

Sammy and Lisa

We went Iceblocking....

It was soooo much fun! I haven't been sense I was in Jr.high!

Maren and Austin Hill

Mikah's parents gave a night out to La caille. We ate such yummy food and got to eat with the peacocks!

My good friend got married and her wedding was absolutely gorgeous! Im so happy for her!

Paxton has started real contact football! Every saturday I get to feel like a cheerleader again and root for my buddy! He is so awesome! I love him!

Will one of my best buds

2010-09-22T17:55:00.000-07:00

SO i went down and helped me sister move to a new place and the new place needed some work done, so David the worker came over and was working on the house, pretty much all day. Will found a snail, while we were keeping busy!

This kid loooves bugs!

Spiders, snails, rolly pollys, anything that crawls he loves!

So he found this big fat snail, and he took it with him everywhere that day! Inside, outside, frontside you name it. He left it on the toy chest (which is right by the sliding door) and david....

CoWaBuNgA

2010-08-31T13:19:00.000-07:00

It looks cooler than it is but we still had a fun time! We felt like we were in a life size mouse trap!

The best thing about cowabunga was this huge jug of Diet Coke hahaha

GOOOOOO COWABUNGA WHOOOO

Im a Pro Biker now...

2010-08-10T09:25:00.000-07:00

Jeni and I got new road bikes!

Basically we are a lot of things now....

Hot in spandex

Pro athletes

Michael Jackson glove wearers

Fashion models for bike magazines

Yep this is the picture i'm going to turn in and see if we make the cover of

this

magazine

We would look good on the cover of a magazine!

Acapulco Angels or Dirty Devils

2010-08-06T09:57:00.000-07:00

I just laugh everytime i see these pictures! Camp was such a blast! We were the Acapulco Angles and our skit and our actions were more devilish so we got the best award for devilish behavior hahahaha

I guess that sums up the week!

No just kidding!

We had such a fun, spiritual, and bonding time together! There really is nothing like girls camp! A place where women (and i'm saying all women, leaders and the youth) get together and really feel heavenly fathers love! He watches over us and loves everyone for who they are,

whatever their circumstance are!

I'm glad that I have the chance as an adult to attend girls camp! I probably went only 2 times when i was younger and i would say i probably had devilish behavior..always complaining and sleeping in,

but Im lucky that i have such wonderful Young women now! They are truly amazing, and are some of my best friends!

Ok maybe we did have devilish behavior! We got shark attacked cause we went to each ward and silly string them! Payback right?!?!?

Our Skits! Aren't they cute angels?!?!

They are charlie's angels, and we leaders where devils, beating people up and trashing the camp ground

This was our only shower! ahaha

MY Favorite BANANA BOATS! soooo yummy !

Happy Birthday to You!

2010-07-25T13:49:00.000-07:00

One year older and wiser too happy birthday to you!

Big 26 woot woot

I love you! Thanks for sharing your life with me!

We went to Arellas and celebrated with loved ones!

2010-06-30T09:49:00.000-07:00

The adventures of Hawaii with the Carvers!

We laid at the pool everyday, ate at fun restaurants,went running on the beach, ate some more and laughed all day!

One of the many beach side restaurants

we did a zip line through the Hawaiian hills.

Our guides were freaking hilarious, one of the guys told us to beware of hogs.

HOGS? REALLY?

" weird" we all though...and as we were walking all of a sudden in the trees came a "hog" like sound...danny being the protecting husband RAN as fast as he could up the hill...leaving me behind...the whole group was sooo scared and then it was just the tour guide! IT was hilarious

Roy's dinner was also amazing! I had the best smore dessert, that face just shows how good it was! hahah

TOUGH GUYS NOT SO MUCH

HAHAH Danny running from the waves cause his other shoe already got hit from the wave!

who wears shoes on the beach anyways?

Tony and Danny went golfing all day long on some private island! That was their high from the whole trip, not being with their wives. weird.

This was the rock that we jumped off of! We had to swim out to the rock and then we climbed were that guy is standing and then we jumped! it was so thrilling! wahoooooo I love stuff like that!

Ohhh how i already miss the beach!

Thanks sweetie for such a fun trip!

Welcome Baby ANDREW!!!

2010-06-05T13:13:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the world baby Andrew! You came to a wonderful family who lives in the prettiest place on earth NewPort Beach!

You have a cRaZy brother who makes us all laugh!

right now he can't say Dog very well, its more like Goggie!

He also says Girl in the cuttest way! He

You are a handsome boy! We love you and miss you already!

You brother can't get enough of you! He smothers your face and pokes you in the eyes! Haahaha! He loves when you make noises and it makes him laugh!

You will love Uncle Dan! He sure loves you and Will!

Look how cute you are! You have an amazing mother, she is strong, beautiful, funny,

and loves you so much!

And Your Nanna, she is the funnest nanna! you will have alot of fun getting away with anything you want, she likes to spoil her grandkids! (look at will, he cant stop touching you!)

I love you Andrew!

Make me happy....

2010-04-15T15:27:00.000-07:00

The sun is out and my trees are beginning to grow popcorn on the branches! Makes me happy!

Soon it will be warm enough to go play in the water! Makes me Happy

Soon I go visit these two + one baby, Makes me Happy

Soon, we'll be carefree and living easy in Hawaii, Makes me Happy

Soon it will be so HOT and bright that we can't even stand it but, It makes me happy

Miss this guy!

2010-04-06T13:10:00.000-07:00

Danny got the chance to visit SPAIN. Why, you might ask? Boys trip duh! Tyler P. and Dan got to go visit their friend Shaun Green who now plays Basketball in Spain! Crazy? Ya! Was I invited NO! Jealous Yes! I have always wanted to go to Paris, France, Spain all those places that seem so romantic, and he has never been interested! But i guess its more romantic with guys! Whatever....

I sure do miss him though!

Thinking of...

2010-03-29T16:26:00.000-07:00

Thinking my husband is the biggest hottie!

Thinking i want to go to a Utah football game and this was a such a fun rainy game!

(yes Im wearing a garbage bag haha it was unopened)

I wish I could have another frozen hot Chocolate from Serendipity

(look how excited i am about it!)

Thinking i'm a fun, young aunt, BUT when they get older I wont be young BUT I Better be fun!

I love our friends! Wishing it was summer!

Thinking I would love to open up a bakery (Jeni reminded me I don't bake)

I CAN NOT wait for our vegas trip! Brooke is thee funniest friend to be with, I laugh so hard when i'm with her. Love her!

Thinking Sloan is possible thee cutest baby! It's baby season, all my friends are starting to have babies I guess that means i should start thinking of maybe, possible, wondering, if I should have a baby in the next 2-3 years form now! hahaha

Thinking of these amazing friends! Hoping that Tony starts feeling better so that he can fill strong on our trip to HaWaIi

Thinking that I want to live here one day! Hawaii...Can't wait to put my feet in the sand and feel the sun on my face!

Thinking that these Two Guys are going to SPAIN

Should be some interesting stories that come from this trip!

New York New York

2010-03-13T13:08:00.000-08:00

Ohhh how I loved New York. The longer i'm away the more I want to go! It was such an exciting place to visit!

Gotta have frozen hot chocolate from Serendipity

Michael Jackson died while we were there. It was a sad time, but the city was alive with his music, videos, and memorabilia of him! Every store we went into was blasting with his music. It was a good way to celebrate his life!

We did do the bus tours and actually loved it! we got to sit on the top of the bus and look at the city. It was a good transportation to the shopping, to time square and to see the Statue of Liberty.

One night we decided to eat out on a patio, we had just gotten our drinks and danny got some soup. We were enjoying our time until a DOWN pour of rain hit us! It wasn't like some raindrops warned us, it was just pouring! hahaha danny starts running with his soup to try to save it from the rain! The restaurant was really small so we had to sit at the bar where the bartender had to wait on us! It was a fun experience, while he told us of some great places to visit!

Peace

2010-02-28T20:22:00.000-08:00

Mary Healy 2nd counsler, Rachel Wyss, Sydney Davis, Olivia Delquadros, Celene Anderson

McKenzie Davis, Me, Noelle Lambert, Janie

I am so lucky to have the best calling in my church!

I'm the Young Women PRESIDENT to these amazing daughters of God. They are such great girls with the biggest hearts! They're all active in sports, music, and even acting. I always am so proud of these girls when they accomplish things like their talks, or dance across the stage or even win at their sport game! I kinda feel like a mom, always proud of them!

I hope that as I lead them through the toughest years of their lives, that I might be able to help them understand that they are here on earth to live life to the fullest, to love others no matter what circumstance, and to also have light in their life. I really do believe that light comes from within ourselves, we get to choose our attitude. I also think that my heavenly father is close to my heart and he helps me get through the days with that light and love.

I really do love these girls and hope that i can have an affect on their lives for the better!

Its a big calling being a president, all i think to myself is "IM PRESIDENT really?!?!" I seriously say it over and over like its not true...but its true! I just try to bring more joy to them through the gospel and hope that they will find peace in their life! I know I have found that peace in my life by having christ close to my heart.

I hope everyone can find what gives them peace!

Open for the public

2010-02-24T14:30:00.000-08:00

COME ON IN

Ok im not going private! TOO much work, plus who's out there looking at my blog that i dont want them to see, I do wish there was some way i could block people like you can on Facebook. Hahahaha But I have noticed alot of people on my blog that has gone private and I cant see,

If you "blocked" me thats fine but here is a list of my fellow bloggers that I would like to see again...

Amy and Kyle Anderson

Whitney Christnesen

Amy Young

Kallie & Damian

Emily Morgan

I thought there was more but if you are private see if i'm on your list cause I was gone for awhile!

LOVE DAY

2010-02-23T15:09:00.000-08:00

Danny took me to see the movie "Valentines Day" then we went and ate at Bonsai!

It was super yummy but the waiter forgot to make my chicken, so I just ate some of Dan's streak!

Happy Valentines

Because Valentines was on a Sunday I had all week to think about this holiday. I asked myself is it really a holiday? Why is there a holiday that we show are love on ONE day? But then I got to thinking how fun it is to remember to do things for our loved ones.

To put some thought into a gift, or a dinner, or an activity.

We used to be really good at surprising each other with little "I love you" gifts/activities, but as the years have gone on we sometimes fail at remembering how those little "i love you's"really mean a lot. SO as I got thinking of what to do for Valentines i thought of all the reasons why I love Danny and came up with a list, and with that list bought little presents that represented those things that i love about him! I like being creative, I like coming up with fun ideas for him, and I like it so much cause he does that for me! At the beginning of the week he surprised me with flowers! I asked him "DO i get to celebrate Valentines all week?" and then that made me think gosh we should be celebrating valentines everyday! A time to love others, a time to give service, a time to remember the reasons why we love our friends and family!

That is my goal now, to think that everyday is a Love day!

HAPPY LOVE DAY

SuPeR BoWL PARTY

2010-02-17T09:21:00.000-08:00

Brad & Brittney hosted an awesome party up at there place in Logan!

She made us yummy burritos, and yummy treats, shes basically martha stewart. She could make anything! (so she told us that at the film festival!haha)

Cute Adam & Lindsey. They just got married, it's fun cause Adam is Danny's cousin and Lindsey is Wendy's best friend! We love having her part of our family! They also live in Logan so it was fun to see there cute little house!

Brad knew the owners of this place where they had a movie theater room and that's where we got to watch the superbowl Saints VS Colts.

We had a great time!

Film Festival

2010-02-17T09:14:00.001-08:00

CHEERS with cider!

The film festival is a huge event in Park City, and we sure did take advantage of it! We went to dinner at our favorite Mexican restaurant. Then we walked main street (trying to see stars) we did see a guy off 24, and Jonah Hill off of Accepted.It was exciting!

I got a makeover at the Mac counter earlier that day, i think they did an awesome job! I wish I had someone to get me ready everyday! How awesome would that be!

Fun Surprise

2010-02-04T17:29:00.000-08:00

My desk with a computer and Diet Coke

Got my first computer. I have always dreamed of having my own Desktop computer. I love sitting down at the desk with a lamp, my diet coke, and music. There is something about the feeling i can't really describe. Sense i got married there were always other things that we needed, or wanted, but finally I really missed having this feeling at my own home. Well Danny made this happen for me. He loves surprising me, on Christmas morning we woke up and he sent me on a scavenger hunt to find my present! It was in my office and he got me the biggest mac! I am one happy girl! I am always sitting at this desk! There are so many things i can do now! its a whole new world at my black computer desk.

Upload my pictures

Download music

burn CD's

Make photo books

Make my blog a personal recording of thoughts

Record all my clients

SO many new things to explore!

Going PRIVATE

2010-02-02T12:16:00.000-08:00

Alright its been a year and I think I am going to start up my blog again! I saw my cousins blog printed on a book and it was soo cute, what a great way to put all your pictures and thoughts together! soooo

I'm going to start back up but I want to go private!

Leave you address

if you don't respond

I understand, or

i'll just stop blogging again, or

ill think you don't like me, or

I wont invite you to see my blog so there!

either way i'm going PRIVATE

2009-02-24T14:54:00.000-08:00

Here are some funny things about me!

I love to brush my teeth and then drink cold water! It is soo refreshing!

I have to put lotion on my hands and feet before i get in bed!

I love chapstick!

I could eat cereal for every meal!

I could eat every hour!

I have been parking further away so i can get some better exercise.

I love target, I can buy groceries and other wants with out Dan noticing hahaha

I love putting on my makeup!

I love to talk on the phone (and run up my minutes!)

I love getting into bed when the sheets are just cleaned! so fresh!

I love to lie on the carpet when the sun is shining on it!

I pick out my shoes before an outfit!

I love shoes but not the price of some!

I am so picky when I buy a purse. I want lots of pockets!

I love painting my nails but HATE how it chips!

I have 2 wisdom teeth growing in :( I'm scared to death of getting them taking out!

The worst thing about life is waking up, i can never get enough sleep! Why does the world hate sleep?I love to sleep in!

I hate the treadmill but love the bike, and stairmaster!

I like to be out and about, but i am a home body!

Love giving facials! One ladie asked if I worked on a farm cause my hand are so strong! haha

LiGhTs at Temple square

2009-01-14T15:51:00.000-08:00

Cute Paxton, we had so much fun together walking, talking, and seeing the Christmas lights!

Will always wanted to get my gum out of my mouth, and he did in this picture!

My favorite boys!!!

Miss you Katie and Will!

Christmas Morning

2009-01-14T15:41:00.000-08:00

Will being patient for his tractor!!

He was so happy!!

Merry Christmas!

Winter snow

2009-01-14T11:39:00.000-08:00

We went sledding on Christmas eve! I forget how much fun it is to sled!!

Cute Sisters!

London she did big jumps and loved it until she landed on her hip!

Will Loved the snow! He asked Danny to take him out every morning! One morning Dan was going to the gym and told Will when he gets back he'll take him out! When Dan returned Will smiled and said "sno"!

He got so cold sledding!

But could not get enough of danny!

Catching snow!

Best Buds!

MeRrY ChRiStMaS EvE

2009-01-02T09:04:00.000-08:00

Family on christmas....Nothing better!!!!

P and Will loved opening presents

London and nanna are SOOO Cute!

Good luck Kallie!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-05T21:57:00.000-08:00

Both of my cutest friends have and are having babies!!! It's sooooo crazy to think that we were in the same shoes once. Going to work full time, hair school full time and studying for the state boards together and now they have babies together! AHHHH I'm still not ready to have a baby!!

Good luck Kallie cant wait to see your baby girl!

Happy birthday brooke!!

2008-12-05T21:43:00.000-08:00

Brooke is the bestest friend ever! She took Me to a jazz game on her birthday! Isn't that great!

We had the best time ever!
We love Deron Williams!

We got to go on the court and take some great pictures

Thanks Brooke for such a fun and memorable night, a lot better than last year at esthetics school! Except those doughnuts rocked!

Family

2008-11-18T18:53:00.000-08:00

I love my family!!!

2008-11-09T20:43:00.000-08:00

Will is soooo cute! He will dance whenever music comes on!

Sorry its sideways :)

Jazz and iphones!

2008-11-09T20:04:00.000-08:00

Gotta love both!

Go jazz!

we sure miss Deron out there!

Happy Halloween

2008-11-08T19:10:00.000-08:00

Danny was a devil and I was the devils angel!

Wendy the good angel, Molly the bad angel

The spa girls!

Paxton screaming

Laurie and I having fun at the studio

Lindi the best massage therapist! She rocks!

Will and Katie TiMe!!!

2008-10-30T19:27:00.000-07:00

I went to visit the Hadfield's and such a great time!

Will is toooooo cute!

He ate his whole bowl of popcorn and then he kept stealing more form my bowl, he just kept saying "pacorn" sooo cute!

This kid is talking like crazy! He woke up screaming "I wan it" haha so cute!

We went to a wicked Halloween ward party! He was Elvis with Ty

Love you Katie so much! You are an amazing mother, sister and best friend! Thanks for lovin me and showing me a great time!

G N O at AlLuRe

2008-10-30T19:07:00.000-07:00

We went out for Jayne's bachlorette party on a Wednesday night, now you might say awesome?!? but nooo clubs that i knew of were dancing on Wednesday night! so we went to club allure!!
We were 4 out of maybe 30 people there!
But we sure had fun Cherokee in it up!!!! We sand like a virgin by Madonna!
We ROCKED IT

Club Allure is AWESOME

Love you Jayne so happy for you

Pumkin date night

2008-10-19T13:41:00.000-07:00

It was a fun date night! Danny WAS there he just didn't want carve, what a party pooper!!!
but are pumkins ROCKED

Young, Hip, & Fabulous

2008-10-11T18:33:00.000-07:00

This is my studio in my house!

Young, Hip, & Fabulous!

Call for an appt!

Double D's

2008-10-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

Danny and I got to be part of Deron Williams charity event called The Point of Hope! All the money that was given was donated to an autism school. We went to Flemings and had a great dinner, Danny got a ball signed by Deron, and we got to meet many of the Jazz players!

The next day Deron put on a golf tournament and our work sponsored a hole to have the players try on watches and have a chance to win $500 towards a watch!
Deron is such a nice guy! We had a fun time working with him!

Get in the hole!
This is C J Miles diving away! haha

GO UTES

2008-10-05T13:28:00.000-07:00

One heck of a game!!!!

Memories...I stole this form my cousins, cause I Love them!

2008-09-12T16:16:00.000-07:00

Memories...You better do this or else

1. Add a comment on my blog and leave one memory that you and we had together. It doesn't matter if you know me a little or a lot, just do anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll guess you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.

Utah state Fair RoDeO

2008-09-08T16:53:00.000-07:00

Can you believe how nasty the fair really is? You got to love the curly mullet! Ha ha

We are sooooo excited to be at the rodeo
Our cute friend Brynn rides horses but it was too dark when she rode to capture how cute she is on her horse! She did awesome!

SOOO BusY

2008-09-03T15:27:00.000-07:00

I have been so busy the last few months with a new car, new job, and a new house! Its fun to be working in a spa, I love what I do, "pampering others" Please contact me and we will get you an appt for some pampering!

What me officer???

2008-08-09T19:47:00.000-07:00

My first

Ya I tried to talk the cop out of it...

Tried to show a little cleavage...

Told him I have never gotten a ticket...

Smiled at him...

Batted my eyes at him...

IT DIDN'T WORK!!!

He still gave me a freakin ticket!

$82 dollars later

YoungHip&*Fabulous

2008-08-09T19:31:00.000-07:00

Danny and I moved into a town home and we are loving all the space! I have set up a salon in my basement room, so come on over and get pampered!

my salon is called Young*Hip*&* Fabulous
Hair cuts for all!!

First day in Switzerland

2008-07-21T16:49:00.000-07:00

Welcome to Switzerland

AUSFAHRT pronounced assfart! haha we got a kick out of it!
Us girls
We took so many tram rides up and down the mountains, and when someone really did ausfahrt it was horrible! haha

Lee and Evenlyn Barnes TRUE swiss

The Eger mountain

Everywhere we went there was always Bratwursts and fries. I'm not kidding, and for those who know me I don't really like meat especially hot dog kind. When we went out to dinner i would get chicken which was pretty good but so expensive. For one Coke with no ice, no refills it cost $5 whole franks! Hot dog and fries $20 franks, there frank and our dollars where the same value!

Most of all Switzerland was beautiful

Paragliding in the Jungfrau

2008-07-12T15:35:00.000-07:00

I got to go Paragliding in the Jungfrau mountains and it was such a neat experience!! It really wasn't even scary, the air just lifts the parachute up and then your just floating the whole way down.

My pilot Stephan was so great, told me about his life and showed me his house. There is so much farming in Switzerland and his yard was tiny!! He told me he was not a farmer boy! He was great!

SO beautiful!!

Tiffany my sis in law also did it with me, we had so much fun! She is the reason I did it, she was so brave not even scared!

Just the beginning!

2008-07-05T15:52:00.000-07:00

Of course we had to go see the Breitling watch factory in Switzerland
Danny looking mad cause they wouldn't let us see inside the factory
Here he thought he had a chance..he was waiting in the front office!! REALLY EXCITING

In Grinderwald there was a Dany street

I went Paragliding!!!
Went in really cool caves!
Went to the Temple, were Danny's grandma and grandpa first met!

Danny's great great grandpa bought the land for the church to build the temple on! Isn't that neat?!? There was so much family history in Switzerland, we were so lucky that we had our grandparents as our guides.. they are amazing!

Me posing by the BMW..motorcycle/bike/car
This is only the beginning of the adventures in Switzerland!!

We're BACK

2008-06-30T18:43:00.000-07:00

We are now back in the U.S. and it sure does feel great to be home. We are still on a different time schedule but were getting there. (Nobody really prepared me for how awful the 24 HOURS of flying would be haha) Other than that the trip was amazingly beautiful! I have so many pictures, but they are all on my in laws computer making a CD of every ones pictures.
This is one of the most beautiful waterfalls in Interlakin.
Don't worry I will have much more pictures!

Warning...Not a GuN

2008-06-11T19:03:00.000-07:00

This is my next hair dryer... I saw this hair dryer and I really wanted to order it....I Didn't... But isn't this funny! Watch out clients if you piss me off i'll pull this out!

Switzerland

2008-06-11T18:51:00.000-07:00

Isn't this beautiful?? Danny and I are traveling to Switzerland next Tuesday. I'm super excited, I've never been out of the country before. Danny's grandma is from there and his grandpa served a mission there. so they have always wanted to take their kids back, so were going!! Aren't we soooo lucky. Hello world here I come!!!

Are there any tips on traveling outside the U.S you want to share?? Please do!!

I want to take some sleeping pills at night and on the plane so that I can sleep...should I??

My next assistant!!

2008-06-04T01:07:00.000-07:00

London decided to cut her hair off!!! All by herself.. mind you!! You can't tell but its sooo short in the back so I did a A line. It was some magic a preformed! haha
Jeni asked London if she was trying to be a hairstylist like aunt Molly... Hopefully one day she could be my assistant. How fun would that be?!?

I Passed!!

2008-05-21T15:20:00.000-07:00

Its offical I have passes my tests, and now I'm a Master Esthetician!!!

I just have to pay the state more money to give me a paper with my name on it!

Work or Play??

2008-05-21T15:06:00.000-07:00

Danny went to a training on Breitling watches in San Diego, and let me tell you it was a luxury for him! He had a free massage, drinks, food and he got to go to the Red Bull Air Races!

While he was there he meet are favorite T.V stars off of SCRUBS

Tough work Danny !!

Big D the GraD

2008-05-07T17:02:00.000-07:00

WAY TO GO DANNY

The big day has finally come and gone. He was so happy to have school over with. So am I!! I'm so proud of him!!
Him saying goodbye to the U
My cute mom. She supports us so much.
Family

His family just loves him so much! Thanks for supporting us, We love you.
Grandpa Lee and Grandma Evelyn are the best grandparents!

Congratulations DANNY . Here we go, off to bigger and better times! Can't wait for more of lives adventures with you! Thanks for being a hard worker, and an awesome husband! Love you

Schools out FOR EVER

2008-04-30T16:19:00.000-07:00

I'm done with school, hopefully forever!

Its been a long road but well worth it! I love the industry that I work in and I can't wait to get working in a salon/spa. Danny is also done with school WAAAHOOO He graduated in Business Economics and is so excited to find a career in sales. He is the best at whatever he puts his mind to and is so driven to succeed! I'm so proud of him and ..... me of coarse. haha Hopefully we can move out of state for a while but I don't know if that dream will come true!

We have a super busy summer coming up, Girls camp at Moab (so fun), Family reunions on both sides, going to Switzerland with Danny's family, and our rent is up in July. Oh and my state boards for esthetics...no fun. Wish me luck!

Brooke and I decided we would celebrate our graduation by going to Kalai's concert! It was really fun to be out side listing to his music. He is awesome. Thanks brooke for a fun time! I'm going to miss all the EARLY morings with ya, more so all the fun laughs we had! Keep in touch

This is my favorite song On My Mind

-DODGE BALL-

2008-04-19T17:50:00.000-07:00

Here is what we look like on a regular basis........

Here is what we look like when we play DODGE BALL
Don't you just love that we look like Grandmas!

Brooke had this brilliant idea for us to be in a dodge ball tournament...enough said we lost!

I was the last one out, I dodged those balls like it ain't no thing, but I threw the ball like crap.

In the end we got $15 to Cold Stone for best dress! So it was worth every minute of HuMiLiAtIoN HAHA

I think Brooke and I are the cutest ones.....Don't you??

Got to LOVE the glasses Brooke borrowed from the construction guys at SLCC

You ask why??

2008-04-07T20:00:00.000-07:00

They may look good now but look what the SUN will do................

WEAR SUNSCREEN!!

Its so important to wear sunscreen! And for you parents, you need to put it on your children in the summer every day! If you get a good sunscreen from a esthetition like myself, it doesn't stink or feel like store bought sunscreen! You can still get some color but you don't want to ruin your skin, not only skin cancer but old saggy wrinkly skin!

Made you wonder???

2008-04-07T19:00:00.000-07:00

You ask what kind?

Glymed Plus

smells great, spreads on nice, feels like its not there, nice price

Want it? Let me know!

Feels Good

2008-04-07T18:56:00.000-07:00

Have you heard that new country song "It still feels good"? Well thats how I feel about our friendship!

Little Miss London

2008-04-05T17:23:00.000-07:00

LONDON was born a supermodel!!

My sister Jeni works at oneity and now her little girl is a model! Go check out this cute store for kid clothes!!

http://www.oneitystore.com/index.html

Life.....

2008-04-02T17:08:00.000-07:00

Danny and I have so much fun together. Living downtown is always an adventure, we love finding little places to go eat, get free tickets to the jazz game, walk to the temple, give bums money, work with diamonds, shop, sit by the fountain and eat ice cream!
This is what we get to see daily. just look at this diamond!!!! 15 carat!!! size of a freakin quarter!
Isn't it amazing!

WELCOME HOME TRENT

2008-03-26T18:46:00.000-07:00

We are so excited to have Trent come home we could barley stand it! We waited at the airport while T decided to make us wait. Another missionary missed his flight so Trent was helping him out!
And finally HE came!!! wahoo
The First group to wait at the airport! (I did red eye feauture and it made dannys grandma Evelyn nose brown and Dannys eye black. Any ideas of how to fix this???WEIRD)
Danny teasing our cousin Jordan!

Trent were glad your home! Its been real boring with out you teasing me!

Just too cute

2008-03-26T18:37:00.001-07:00

Many Faces of WILL

2008-03-19T18:46:00.000-07:00

WILLIAM HADFIELD

Sandy FACE
HIS OOOHH FACE

His MUSCLES

Laughing
MUSCLES again
SLEEPING WILL (In the sand!)
THE LOOK

With DANNY
SMILING FACE
Let me eat your camera FACE
Trying to walk in his slightly too big Jordan's!

We got him these for his birthday!!

It was such a fun trip visiting the Hadfields! William is soo dang cute! He has so many new expressions that we just can't get enough of him! Danny is so stinkin cute with Will, and will absolutely loved Danny! We had a blast in California, we went to the beach, had a bomb fire, shopped, went to Balboa Island and saw sea creatures! It was so fun to be with family!

Love you guys!

~ Family ~

2008-03-19T18:34:00.000-07:00

Joy

Laughter
Happiness

Love
Sisterhood

Peace Utah

2008-03-13T19:04:00.000-07:00

GOING TO CALIFORNIA BABY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY P DOG

2008-03-12T18:38:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAXTON

Happy birthday to my Little buddy!!! I guess hes not so little! He hates to be called babe, baby or any sort of little boy name! So sad that he is growing up! and not to mention toooo fast!
London is racing on a horse! GO LONDON!!
He really doesn't pay attention to me anymore! Its so sad!
At least I still have London and baby Will!

JEEP

2008-03-01T18:42:00.000-08:00

OUR NEW CAR

Here are some picture of are cutest Jeep ever!!!
Our rear end thats now fixed! WAHOO
Big Crack No fun!!

Our Happy FACES Aren't we cute! haha not a very good picture! But it was a lovely day!

Tagged by Trudy

2008-02-25T18:41:00.000-08:00

7 things you don't know about me....

* I talk in my sleep all the time! Danny likes to play along with me while I'm talking. One night I started yelling at him about some something and so he started yelling back, I finally woke up and asked him "Why are you yelling at me?" He started laughing and told me all about it! Another time I literally fell out of bed! haha

* I love to eat! I at least eat 5 little meals a day! Danny says I eat every 2 hours! If i don't eat be afraid, cause i get grumpy! haha I admit it!

*I could sleep in till noon if I didn't feel so guilty!

*I'm afraid of older men! That is if they are intimidating, grumpy, or downright rude! I'm so sensitive anyways so that doesn't help.

*I love Rap, Pop, Hip Hop any kind of music that makes me groove! The funny thing is I can never understand what the words say, so I make up my own words and if Danny is in the car and I'm singing along he laughs and calls me his white gangster who can't rap! Ohhhh but I can Groove!

* I love Clean Sheets! Clean Clothes! Clean Towels! Clean House! Clean Smell! Clean Car! Its a good thing I like to clean! (Thanks to my mom!)

* I'm trying to be a more funny person! I know that sounds so dumb but I am! I think I've gotten better because I can make Danny laugh and my friends! Its weird cause when I get with my family they don't really see that side of me but I'm workin on it!

Now Im tagging
Teddy
Brooke Smith
Jessica Garrett
Keri Cannon
Katie Wood
Theresa Branscomb
Stef Wilcox

Fun Times

2008-02-25T17:08:00.000-08:00

I threw my first baby shower and it turned out awesome! It was in the morning so I did breakfast food waffles, fruit, muffins, and much more!

It was a lot of fun to through a shower for my cute friend Stefanie Wilcox these are our ward friends and Stef is my YW President! She's going to be an awesome mom and I'm so happy that she is having a boy!! Thanks for all who came(oh and if your not in the picture sorry we forgot before you left!)

Thanks for all who showed up and helped me out in the kitchen, and thanks for making it a blast!

Worst Luck!!!

2008-02-16T18:21:00.001-08:00

I just have to vent a little bit, so Danny and I have had theee worst luck with cars this past year! First I got rear ended really bad in the summer! My whole bummper was completely damaged, and was in the shop for 2 months! We got it back and put it up for sale,we just wanted to start over! Well we didn't have any luck selling it with the for sale sign up so we were going to list it but then....I hit a freakin Ice chunk and it ruined the oil pan which ruined our engine!!!!! SO we got a new engine! once again it was in the shop.... This was the conversation

"Danny we need a new car!"

"Ya lets sell it! or run it through the action" danny

"K lets go buy a car"

"There so many I want though BMW, Mercedes, Porche, Audi"

"Danny I want a car thats safe and affordable!"

SO through many days finding a car that would work for us we got.....

This JEEP.

Oh we were so excited, its so stinkin cute!

Here comes the worst part....WE GOT REAR ENDED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH I wanted to beat the sh*t out of this kid that hit us!

Oh and our old car nobody will buy it! The action wont take it, Car Max will only give us half of what is worth, because all the places we have takin it to get fixed, did not fix it right....

What is up with our luck?!?!?!?!?! I guess we have NONE

Now we have two cars that are damaged! Got to love it!

What A Mini??

2008-02-06T19:36:00.001-08:00

What Car Matches Your Personality?

My Result: What's Hot Now

Talk about in the know. You're on top of the current trends, even if the current trends are throwbacks to days past. You know the latest lingo and can probably rattle off a list of movies that are currently showing in the theaters, as well as the latest "it" place to grab a bite after the show. Chances are, you pay attention to the news and current events, too. Basically, you're on top of your game. You can change with the times and are on to the next best thing before others even know what hit them.

So what's the perfect car companion, the vehicle to fit your hot lifestyle? Maybe it's the new Beetle or the Mini Cooper. Or maybe your interested eyes should be falling on the new breed of transforming trucks like the Chevy Avalanche. You could be riding with a new style before you know it!

What are you?
http://web.tickle.com/rd/50651/tests/carpersonality/index.jsp?testname=carpersonalityogt&resultid=E

Many of you know that I have loved mini coppers for ever! well this test said I should get one! We have had the worst car trouble latley and i'm so sick of it! I really do deserve a Mini Copper! I have never owned a new car that I picked out! ( I'm greatful though for all the cars I have been fourtunate to drive) But I think its time for me to get what I've dreamed about for a long time!

Master Esthetics

2008-02-06T17:04:00.000-08:00

Here is my class in our awesome new room! Please call me and make appts! Its so inexpensive and you get awesome results!

Chemical peels, Microdermabrasion, Cellulite treatments, Back Facial, and much more! Call me and i'll set up an appt for you

One day Brooke found homemade masks on the web and so she made our class try them! This one was bannanas, and a bunch of other things. We had a blast posing for the camera!

FOREVER our IzzyJane

Happy new year!!!

missing her

BitterSweet

my 6 Month thoughts

getting easier YES getting harder YES

The RIDE

Flutterby

Flutter...By...IzzyJane

Nightmare...DREAM

bricks

uplifting

Ranting

New York New York

2 months

Music is lifting my soul

HOPE

Bravery Is...

Tug a WAR

I love her

I want

One month has gone...

My IzzyJane and our story

Pregnant with IzzyJane

IzzyJane

FaMiLy

We are having a...

MeRrY ChRiStMaS

HALLOWEEN

Pumpkin Party

Summers over but the memories are always with me!

Will one of my best buds

CoWaBuNgA

Im a Pro Biker now...

Acapulco Angels or Dirty Devils

Happy Birthday to You!

Welcome Baby ANDREW!!!

Make me happy....

Miss this guy!

Thinking of...

New York New York

Peace

Open for the public

LOVE DAY

SuPeR BoWL PARTY

Film Festival

Fun Surprise

Going PRIVATE

LiGhTs at Temple square

Christmas Morning

Winter snow

MeRrY ChRiStMaS EvE

Good luck Kallie!!!!!!!!!

Happy birthday brooke!!

Family

Jazz and iphones!

Happy Halloween

Will and Katie TiMe!!!

G N O at AlLuRe

Pumkin date night

Young, Hip, & Fabulous

Double D's

GO UTES

Memories...I stole this form my cousins, cause I Love them!

Utah state Fair RoDeO

SOOO BusY

What me officer???

Young*Hip*&*Fabulous

First day in Switzerland

Paragliding in the Jungfrau

Just the beginning!

We're BACK

Warning...Not a GuN

***Switzerland***

My next assistant!!

I Passed!!

Work or Play??

Big D the GraD

Schools out FOR EVER

-DODGE BALL-

YoungHip&*Fabulous

Switzerland