Sunday, August 14, 2011

I want

I want to breath normal again
I want my smile back
I want to take away this pain from not only me but from danny and family
I want to get pregnant again
I want a dog
I want to run away
I want my IzzyJane
I want to be happy again
I want my heart heal
I want to know that I'm going to make it through this
I want to be a mother


Anonymous said...

This is Meagan again, I commented on your first post about your baby and I too am a mother whose baby died. You will ALWAYS be a mother. You have to remember that. You have to keep IzzyJane present in your life. Incorperate her into as much as possible. If you don't you will spiral fast. It hurts, I know how bad it hurts personally. You are a mother to an angel. We angel mommies are beyond special. We gave our bodies, hearts, minds, spirits... everything so that our babies could come get what they needed, a body. I wish I could make you see and feel that it will get better. It takes time but the hurt does lessen. I am just over 18 months out and I always feel incomplete but it's not overwhelming. I hope that the coming days and weeks get easier. Know that you are loved and thought about from a fellow stillborn momma down here in Las Vegas.

{Brooke} said...

Molly, I don't even know what to say. I know your heart is heavy and hurting. You have always been an example to me of being strong. Don't lose it Molly. You can do this. I know you can. I love you

Fran said...

Love you so much, Molls.

Ashley Richards said...

I love this post Molls because it is so honest. It is so good to get things out and express them. I think everything you are feeling is 100% normal and you are doing your best. Keep this list close and and as you move forward one baby step at a time, you will be able to cross many of these off. I promise you will be happy again. I just wish I could make it come sooner than later.

I think about you often and I continue to pray for you and Danny. I'm sorry Molls.

Love you- Ash Richards

Katie said...

I want all those for you!!! I love you.xoxox

Brittney said...

I love you molly, and you will always be a mommy. I hope to see you soon... and that beautiful smile.

schaars said...

Molly you are so AMAZING! I wanted to tell you just how Beautiful you looked on Saturday when I ran into you. I wish I was better with words and would of told you how much I had been thinking about you and Danny. You are the most amazing mother of all.... and will be a even stronger mom for your other children to come. Xoxo