Thursday, May 10, 2012

The box

I wrote this poem in the middle of the night 2 months ago and haven't shared it.
But now I know why....

To be opened
did it have to be closed?
did its releasing open up the box
for the opening must have known all
that would be soaked up while being exposed.
bare, seen, clean, only to be
scratched beaten scared
but again to open
we must have known all these things
a box
how much can one hold,
when is enough
what is too much
how heavy can it get
can it close back up?
 our hearts bodies and minds
when we were forced on this earth
we must have known that we would open
open our box and it would be filled
it would hold
it would close back up
and to be taken up
back to our creator.
but how why
can i do this
i don't know if my box can hold any more
i've gone through my parents divorce,
my dad dying in an explosion burning 99% of his body
My daughter dying inside me, before i got to see her beautiful blue eyes.
maybe my box is bigger
it might have been torn
it might have holes,
it might be more than i can carry
i know who can close it up and carry my box
2 powerful men
my husband who is my rock
my God who is my salvation
I am stronger
I am alive
I am compassionate
I am loving
I am me


IzzyJane is sending us her baby.... Brother 

I release these blue balloons
I want to release the fear
Release the thoughts of wanting another girl
not to replace IzzyJane but to fill in the hole. 
release those thoughts...
It's easier typing and saying these words

Baby boy we are excited for you to come into this world. 
Please come to us safe and sound in October!  
We need some joy in our world, we need your spirit here to smile and to laugh with!
We love you already so much! 
Your the size of an avocado and i can already feel you moving inside me! 


Anonymous said...

Wonderful news! I fervently hoping for your rainbow son.

Jordan Page said...

congratulations to you guys, how exciting!

maddie said...

this makes my day! congratulations, young family!

Melenie said...

Congratulations, he is going to be one handsome little boy!

Melanie and Daniel said...

I am so so happy for you. This baby boy coming to your family is so very lucky.

Lauren said...

Molly, I am so excited for you! Boys are so much fun! Izzyjane is so proud of her mama and loves you so much! She is hugging your heart all the time =-) I love how you announced this so great!

Chris Sewell said...

good deal!

Whitney said...

I have been waiting for this post! I am so happy for you! I shed a few tears knowing how excited and scared you must be feeling! Good luck! My prayers are with you and your sweet boy!

Jade Hill said...

Aw congrats!! A little boy! I am so happy for you guys!

Renel said...

I read this post and cried. I did. I love how you said "Izzy Jane is sending us a baby brother" I love that thought. I feel so connected to you, our daughters did that for us....and am just hoping right along with you. I will email you and write out the bazillion thoughts I have. Giant hugs to you.

GMyers said...

I LOOOVE that picture! I'm so happy for you guys!

Jason and Ronda said...

Congrats Molly! Soooo happy for you! You look so happy in that picture! Love it!

Gabe and Abby said...

Congrats Danny and Molly! I am so happy for you guys! You are beaming in that picture! Happy Mother's day, Love you!


Ellen and Austin said...

That poem was beautiful :) Congrats that is so exciting for your family. I love how you can see the excitment on your faces in the picture what a great way to announce this amazing time!!

Keri Cannon said...

Molly I am so excited for you guys!!!!! You deserve it more than anyone I know! We are having a boy just a month before you. I hope you have a great pregnancy and all goes well. Can't wait to meet that baby boy!

Daughter of God said...

I am so excited for you two!!!! I don't know what it's like to loose a child, but I do know what it is like to have a little boy. It is wonderful, they have so many cute things for boys now. And he'll still be little around christmas time. My third son was born the beginning of December, what an amazing Christmas it was to have a little boy like Mary did. My heart has so much joy for you!!!! Prayers are sent you way now for a healthy pregnancy :] loves and kisses

brooklyn Norton said...

congrats Molly and Danny!

The Bennett's said...

Molly i am so excited for you guys!!! Congrats Girl!!

Devrie Pettit said...

You are a stunning woman. Congrats to the both of you, it is SO exciting.

schaars said...

Congrats Molly and Danny! I am so excited for you guys:) my thoughts and prayers are with you for a healthy baby boy.

Nicole said...

I'm so excited for you two!!! Congrats!

damian-kallie said...

Molly, I loved your post. After the first 5 lines I was in tears. I love reading what you write. You are incredible, as a person, mother and wife. I cannot believe how you have touched everyone's lifes. You are AMAZING. I am so happy that you are gonna have a mini Danny in your house. I love you dearly, and couldn't be more happy for your family!

Anonymous said...

My HEART grew 10x's on this day...... I love that box! I am so excited to love on another one of your babies!
Love that little avocado!


candice and tom said...

Molly and Danny i am so excited for you! i know that things will go great and that you will be able to enjoy your sweet little boy. its so great that izzyjane will be able to be with him and help prepare him to come down here. I am so so excited. Congratulations.

The Johnson Crew said...

Congrats! I am so happy for you both and your families. Your happiness beams out of that picture. I pray for a healthy little guy for you to enjoy, love and raise.

Healy Household said...

Danny & Molly, we are so happy for you!! Congratulations. Seeing this pictures gave me goosebumps!

Michael said...

Oh my goodness, Molly! I am so, extremely excited for you guys! :)