He's here and we did it!!!I can't even begin to explain how amazing it is to have my baby to hold, smell, love and smile with.
He is absolutely perfect. It was so surreal when he came into this world. My water broke at 3A.M October 8th i was 37 and 1/2 weeks pregnant, and the day before Danny and I went on a walk around our new neighborhood, we took a drive out up to park city.
I was having lots of contractions for a couple of weeks, they kept getting stronger and stronger and that night Cruz was moving all around and my contractions where coming on but nothing that stayed.
I woke up to go to the bathroom and laid back down and Cruz was seriously moving all around, i even said to him "slow down baby, i want to sleep" and then right then i heard a pop and I shot out of bed and sure enough my water was breaking!!
It was crazy! Danny was running all around the house getting things that i kinda prepared for this moment!
We get in the car and i call the hospital to let them know we were on our way and the lady answered "OB emergency, this is IZZY, how can i help you?" ummmmmm hello?!?!?
If that wasn't a sign from God that Izzy is close to us then I don't know what is!
We got there and sure enough Izzy took care of us and was sooooo sweet. I told her I have a baby angel named Izzy, we both got teary eyed.
Sure enough i was in labor, it didn't take long for Cruz to make his appearance. I pushed him out in 4 minutes! He was just so ready to come into our world and heal our hearts. It's been amazing ever sense.
He is such a sweetie! I love kissing his face. I love his toes. I love holding him. I love that he needs me to survive. Ohhh I love him. I love him so much, that it hurts. He literally has changed my heart.
It hurts to know that I really did lose all this with Izzy, wow its so crazy that I've been without this for a year and a half, and now i have it! Every little thing he does, or we do together makes my heart leap with joy. I love it, I love him I Love Love him! Now i know why it was so painful to have lost Izzy, it hurts so much cause even though i don't have her I love love love her!
One morning i was talking to Cruz and I was talking about how special he is to come to our little family, telling him he has come here to heal our hearts and help us be closer to Izzy, and no joke he smiled his first smile. It was so amazing! I even had time to grab my phone and get a picture.
I kept talking to him about his sister and how leaving her was probably bittersweet, and yet I'm so glad he came down here! Ughhh I can't even express how much love I have for my babies!